Follow your Dreams, Live your Dreams

I know I don't have much time to write like I used to, and I'm currently dealing with migraine coz I'm pretty exhausted and slept a little later than usual recently. So I will buzz off in any minutes, before 11.30pm for sure.

I'm here writing, because I love sharing, my thoughts and everything, although I realized I've became more shy than before to write about personal stuff here. Somehow I felt like I am more mature. I've grown up and I'm proud of what I've became.

Do you proud to be yourself? What have you achieved these few years?

I'm still searching myself when I was 23. I want to do something that I really really love. I was really really good at academics, I love calculations and figures, but wonder why I still have these uncertainty thoughts. It is hard to figure out "me".

From time to time I learned about so many things and I tried to be as flexible as I could. And then I find that I love to be average in everything rather than being really good at something. There's no harm. I enjoy schools, I play inline skate, I love modeling and catwalk, I love cookings, I love taking pictures and recording videos, because I love to capture moments. I even learn about the media softwares and love editing it. And new thing in the house, I love the office life. Even this is just an internship, I would love to be a successful career woman in future. So that's me.

On your way up you'll facing and surrounded by different type of negative vibes. People will keep on questioning you and try discourage you.

"Do you think you can do it?"

"Why are you doing that?"

"Oh I don't think it is suitable for you."

"You didn't seems to fit in it."

"Don't do this and don't do that..."

Yes. It is just a word so they can feel better about themselves. If you believe you're on the right path, please proceed. They might have the same dreams as yours, who knows. The different is you're willing to take the chances and bear the risks, but they don't.

I believe I'm on the right track, and I fill up my list and I fulfill my needs; the life satisfactions. And I'm not afraid to be me, I don't care about the rest who don't believe in me, because the people who loves you they will understand and you don't have to explain a thing.

I am thankful to have beautiful people by my side. Afiq, he loves me when I being me. I realized I'm much behave and I keep my mind straight, independent and not spoil when I'm with him. Elynn, she wasn't always here with me, the two are busy living our own lives, but I understand her and she understands me. As a girlfriend she makes me feel free. Aini, another busy freaks (but I'm loving it), the loyal supporter who trusted me with no doubt. And Fariz, the man you're easy to talk with about almost everything. Lastly, my Freedom Fighter fellas, especially Ath, Amir, and Mokhriz. They have been really good to me, like you're no other.

I'm thankful for the life I'm having, and I'm looking forward for more to come. I feel great about myself. Totally. It's not about how you feel outside but it is about how you feel inside. It doesn't matter if they say you didn't look good, or you're not great, it is you to define yourself, not them. It is you to determine what to do, not them. The shits they have put you through, don't blame. Take it as a useful tool to learn, and you'll be better.

Follow your dreams, live your dreams. It is a good feeling when you wake up in the morning, look into the mirror smile and say, "I am me, and I'm proud to be me."